in 6 days, i will be turning 27. i remember before i turned 26, i wrote a somewhat melodramatic reflection on the years and the experiences ive been through. well, i think i should do one now.
hmm.. i noticed that every year, every birthday is totally different.let me look back as far as i can remember…
who wouldve thought that i would be back here in manila when last year, i was walking through moscow spring. i remember i spent a whole weekend on my birthday.with chris, zhenia, swan lake, sasha, tanya, giorgio and vladimir (my birthday gift).
the year before that,2007, i think i hibernated because i was getting ready to go to moscow.
in 2006, i was with hyen, jessi, pabs, zaldy and lhen in red box singing our hearts out in karaoke wonderland. ooh i remember nippon express. i spent the first 5 hours of my birthday printing those CTA reports! it was totally fun! the golden years of my audit life…
in 2005, i think i spent it with my family and friends. i was working in IBM that time. for a one month stint. haha.
in 2004, i was in manila. living with punky and alyssa. one of those dismal birthdays because i worked in Etelecare that time. in trying to find myself, i jumped from accounting to sales. and didnt like it. boo.
in 2003, yikes. i was reviewing for the CPA board exams. i most probably spent the day with my family. and the years before that, i know there wasnt any big celebration because my birthday is in the enrollment week.
everyone’s money was spent on tuition fees!
hmmm. not much spectacular times actually. except for those times spent with memorable people, most were uneventful.. so whats going to be new this year? well, first i have a totally different job. something i really like doing. im getting a new camera, a 500D. im too excited. and im seriously going to start on violin lessons when i figure out my schedule. and uhm, im getting in the gym thats for sure. haha!
and yeah, i think im beginning to have an inkling on how to love now. what through thick and thin and for better or worse mean. i think? im beginning to have an idea what commitment is, you know, when the feelings are gone, when the pain sometimes blind the decisions ive made.
im beginning to understand that I REALLY DONT KNOW ANYTHING. that i dont need to know whats happening. im beginning to know that GOD WILL DO WHAT GOD WILL DO. and i can only begin to know him on his own terms. He truly is bigger than me. bigger than my intellect would ever be. although there are frustrating and aggravating moments with him, i found out that i could and still do trust him. this is relationship.
“Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever”
this im sure. thank you Lord for the 26 years.