tuesday thoughts
im kinda excited. martin just got back to me last night and told me they will look into the matter today. oh i really want to receive it… i already have a lot planned when i do get it. this is what i plan to do…
(32,430) – TO
(80,000) – seed money
(10,000) – LO
(30,000) – deposit payment
(6,000) – violin
(52,950) – canon eos 500D
SIGH. the 500D is already out! I want one.. im asking this for my birthday…. i really want it but i really really really cant afford it right now. i dont even have much expendable income until august! and if i do save up for it, it will take me until mid next year, with my bills and all. will you give me this on my birthday? will you even give this to me? i really dont know what youre thinking but i hope you would… i miss miss MISS my camera so much.. i ache for it!
Here i am, trying to convince myself that i will not get this because i dont want to be so eager and in the end, be disappointed. i dont want to be angry with you because i did this, not you. oh mercy on me.
what is so addictive about hope that makes us, again and again, take the plunge in believing even if in the end, it would result in good or bad? are we sadists? or is our definition of good really different? its because we were made to hope. its part of our dna.
sometimes, it just hurts to trust you because it hurts to be hurt and disappointed. so this is love. to experience great joy and great pain without giving up when the going gets tough.
i choose to believe that you are good and that you know what is good for me. with or without this.
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we were having a meeting and my mind was elsewhere. my mind was on the thoughts i wrote above. i am not really feeling the brunt of the june event on me coz kuya G took most of it. i think i only contribute about 2% of everything.. i think i need to help more. they’re almost panicking!
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