memories of a place

theres this place that i used to love so much. i have always dreamed of staying there, living there. and when i do get the chance to go, oh i used to be sooo excited everytime.

but now, it seems like pulling teeth. i have had an unpleasant experience there. and i just couldnt shake off the feelings of fear and unease. even though the experience has been closed off and everythings fine, i just cant help but feel uneasy.  like some sort of dread. something that i have to get over and done with.

so unlike before, where i would certainly leave everything behind just to stay there.

this place is attached to my system. it is a part of me i cannot deny. wherever i will go and whoever i will be, i carry this place with me. its people, its culture, its destiny. i may even actually live there eventually, who knows.

i hope i overcome this. because its messing me up now. its scaring the hell out of me!

~ by mitchuy on July 2, 2009.